Rindu

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I hug my lil Iman 😁😁

Pix: credit Google

Aiming the best

Alhamdulillah.

Hari Jumaat yang barakah.

Just can't stop smiling today.

I made it guys! For almost 5 years, grade with flying colours (as usual, flying colours in my terms.haha)

Thanks to everyone. Families, friends, boss, colleague and my dear baby. This is for you son. I don't want you to give up whenever problem hits you much. keep calm and move on :)

Being up and down. well. 2nd class upper not that bad huh? hehe

pix: credit Google

#WOMENARESTRONG

 Video: credit Youtube



Even though mommy give birth thru c-sec. tapi i'm not those women yang berani tengok video Caesarean. Tapi bila ada yang post pasal video ni and kawan beriya suruh tengok..even tertutup-tutup mata sambil jeling sesikit gagahkan jua tonton video ni sampai abis. Scary gak tengok doctor belah perut and godek-godek nak bagi keluar anak. Yes, mommy half body bius. Memang tak rasa, siap berborak dengan doktor, a few nurse & a few praktikal student. Eh, nape macam ramai je dalam operation room ni..haha..sampai dorang kata, takpe, you tidur je. settle nanti kami kejut. haha..dah macam wake me up when September end je bunyinya ;p Memang tak tido la kan. Istighfar bebanyak & harap semua smooth. Sampai masa blackout pun (this is the funny part. Memang HUKM wat lawak -___-") mommy sedar & boleh terjerit. Nasib baik masa tu Iman dah keluar. Tinggal session nak jahit je.

Ya
Allah, betapa besar kuasa mu ya Allah. Allahuakbar! So, kalau iman nenoti, mommy show je video ni bagi Iman tengok.hahaha. Well, of coz, at the same time, reminds me of my mom too :)

~layan tengok sambil dengar lagu oh mama..hadoiyaai  T__T

Oh my :'(

This post really make my heart cries.
No..no baby. I won't let it happen.
Till the end of my breath or till you decide to leave me :'(

Link: http://m.9gag.com/gag/areVYrp

p/s: Hate this post but actually its a good reminder for all parents out there.

Learn to please self

I deserve to please myself first. Then only I can think about others. Enough of letting people in the front line. I need to learn to be selfish sometimes. Especially when I have a little precious to be taken care of.

Thanks friend for remind me that I still worth million at least for my own. :')

Hygiene sayang hygiene!

This is the difference bila orang lain jaga anak sendiri. Sedih plak tengok botol iman jadi cenggini. Bukan blame the baby sitter. Tapi kalau mak sendiri mesti la nak yang terbaik untuk anak. So dok rajin la menyental botol everytime basuh.

Baby sitter message suh belikan puting baru. Dalam hati oh okay..mesti koyak kot puting iman. Dia memang gagah gigit puting.  Bape kali ntah kena ganti.

Bila dapat botol tu. Tengok puting dan botol iman bekerak sekiannya. Hadoi la..ni mesti kes kocak je..miowww -____-

Sebab mommy memang biarkan barang-barang iman ada kat baby sitter.  Kat rumah pun ade botol iman. Rumah nenek pun ada lagi. Saje spare jadi takde la kes tertinggal ke terlupa. Semua pun mommy spare cam tu termasuk pampers. Baju. Toiletries. Towel. Sebab tu barang-barang iman kena beli banyak.

Tapi jadi kes cenggini. Rasanya kena mintakla tetiap minggu dia return tuk mommy sental.hmmmmpphh

Always trust

One of thing that I thanks Allah swt for always give me a strength instinct as a women. Even sometimes, I rejected it because I 'choose' I do not want to believe it. End of the day, its hard to believe it is true!

I do not know for others. But as for now, with some realistic fact that I will learn to trust my instinct :)

Miss lazy

Miss u.but kinda lazy here.
The sickness I guess >_<

Surrender everything to Him

Bismillahirahmanirrahim,

Alhamdulillah untuk demam hari ke 3. hehe. Allah love me most.
still I can eat, i can blog, i can get free massage from Ibu ;')

To all that happen, must be something behind it. For example, this fever make me relax all day at home.
Otherwise, my time is work, homework, road, study etc..

This Ramadhan is really something special to me. I pray so hard that i can be more Istiqamah (consistent) in my decision. Be more forgettable & forgiveness to those that has hurt my feeling so bad. Be a good muslimah. Be a good Mom. Pray all the goodess for self & family. Truly, last year, i had the most challenged year. I'm trauma for what had happen to me cause I never expect it to come. I can't see certain car. I can't heard certain word. I can't see certain face. Oh gosh. that is terribly so not me.
It's easy to say until you yourself face it.

I tried very hard to forget. tried very hard not to think about it. But it keep coming back. Damn. i hate it.
I tried to show that i'm strong. nothing happen. Little that i know. I'm Human. People that hurt me are Human too. I can't punish them. It's not my job at all.

But there is a moment, the revenge strike my heart. With all the evidence, i believe i can win. And there is a voice ask me to speak up, bring it to the Authority, don't let people step on me, they deserve a lesson, etc2.

Few days later, there is small voice ask me to just let it be. Surrender all to Him. He know what to do. Allah swt Maha Adil right?

The voice is like take turn. I wonder how they alternate the job?? -____-

My close friend always advise me not to be so "Nice" to people. Because most of the time, they take thing for granted. Yes, I did tried.  At first, yeah the spirit is like !@#$, but then i did realized I'm not happy with it. It wasn't me at all.

I'm clueless.

Until this Holy Ramadhan come. So grateful that i still can see them ;')

I see where I'm about to do now.

And until yesterday morning, come back from Raya. my must do morning session beside reading my email is visit my favourite blogger page. (shhhesss, i'd been her silent reader all this while)

 "Forget the small petty things that annoy you, focus on the good moments and wanting to just be happy in this life. Everything is in God’s hands and we don’t know how long we have left in this world before we return back to Him forever. So let’s just focus on doing the good and leaving the bad, submitting to Him and pray that you and your loved ones get a place in Jannah where you will reside forever."

thanks V

Fav pic of the year

Ok. Fever attack akan menjadikan mommy emosi & asek online jek.

Ditambah ketiadaan incik bambam. Ok. Tido selubung dengan rompers iman yang tak basuh lagi.
Night *-___-*

~Credit to mak teh for the awesome pic . unexpected :')

As expected

Well, as usual. Expected.  Reason by reason. Create a lots of excuses. Ironically,  by the time offer made, the excuses is the same. Outstation.  Wtf.haha.

But then, tell others different story which the bad side is on us. You are funny you know! :p

Child are gift. Big responsibility. Big investment. Whenever you neglect them in the world its okay. Just wait till the Real Judgement in Jannah. There, we see if there is still excuses create.

But as for now, I'm more happier because surrounded by love. Just feel so bad to the kids. :'(

Mode: angry to the max. Astagfirullahhalazim

Big boy

I'm a proud mom. At the same time I'm scared. He grown up so fast..

Ada one day ni, mommy tired sesangat. Ok. Pukul 12am dah. 'Iman lets sleep'
Iman yang tengah seronok main & baru dapat kaki ikut la mommy die ni masuk bilik. 

Tuck him. Warm milk. Pokpok die. The end, susu habis. Dia still gelak-gelak ajak main lagi. Mula-mula duduk, pahtu bangun tengok tepi tingkap. Mommy wat derk je ngan harapan die tido balik. Hmmmpphh..memang harapan.hahaha

'It's fine mommy. I just play by my self ok.i noe you tired' Agaknya la tu dalam pikiran die. Die turun katil. Gi ruang tamu & sambung main.

Since kat depan ade pak lang die, mommy tak worried sangat la. Biar die main puas-puas dulu.

Mommy memang tido sebab tak larat & tak sihat sangat. Tapi tak berapa nak lena la sebab still ingat dak kecik tu main sorang-sorang. Sebab tu boleh realize die turun katil sdiri.

Ntah kul brapa dah ntah, die masuk bilik. Panjat katil, ambil botol die, mengendeng sebelah mommy & tido. Mommy kan tak lena memang realize la die naik turun bagai.

Ya Allah, aku yang tengah mamai tu rasa nak nangis pun ada. You such a clever boy. Mommy worried die tertido kat ruang tamu tu sorang-sorang.  Tapi Iman memang anak yang pandai bawa diri. :') Baru setahun tapi Iman dah independent. 
I'm so grateful having you as my son sayang. Moga Allah swt lindungi awak, berkati dan kurniakan awak kecerdikan yang dapat membantu agama Islam.
Amin.

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You already trouble me.

And now you push me.

You just make it hard :-(

Right?

Don't talk about right when actually you don't own one.

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Everything belongs to Allah swt, remember?

Pitstop

Main-main..penat..
Benti minum..

Yes baby, I'm your pitstop,  whenever you feel tired,  I'll always be by your side. Through up and down.

Dengarlah bintang hatiku

lots of love..

Bintang hatiku

"..Aku akan menjagamu semampu dan sebisaku
Walau ku tahu ragamu tak utuh
Ku terima kekuranganmu dan ku tak akan mengeluh
Karena bagiku engkaulah nyawaku.."

Beralih bulan?

Baru-baru ni, iman kekadang cirit birit, kerap berak & sampai bambam die merah-merah.

Die sendiri tak selesa nak duduk. Kesian tengok dia. Punya la sapu drapolene, bedak agnesia la. Macam-macam mommy die Google. Tapi semua pun out.huuu

& terpikir adakah disebabkan kes catu air yang berlaku sekarang. Air tak bersih ke..ish..ke susu die kena tukar..ke babysitter tak basuh bottle die bersih-bersih. Yela, air limited kan. Pun tak bleh nak blame dorang. Sebab tgh desperate.  Kalau kita as a mom lain la..memang no compromy kalo benda melibatkan hygiene especially untuk anak.

Nak gi clinic tetiba fobia teringat kes private clinic yang salah bagi anak die ubat due to rashes. Feel sorry to the family coz their 9 months baby has passed away. :'( apa-apa pun..Allah swt maha mengetahui

Tapi dia still aktif dengan 6 batang gigi menyengeh bila dapat gigit mak die ni -____-"

Jadi apakah lagi sebab nya ye??

Bila Google,  terjumpa satu blog yang kata baby kerap berak sebab beralih bulan.  Selalu orang tua-tua yang cakap. & bila mommy masukkan date birthday iman dalam kalendar islam

Iman born: 02/04/2013 ( 20 Jamadilawal 1434)

Today 22/03/2014 ( 20 Jamadilawal 1435)

Ya Allah cepatnya masa berlalu. Iman dah setahun. (kalendar Islam)
Alhamdulillah.  Allah swt dah pinjamkan iman setahun untuk teman mommy. Moga Allah swt dapat panjangkan lagi pinjaman yang tak akan dapat terbayar sampai bila-bila ni.

Selamat ulang tahun sayang.
Rasa macam baru semalam iman kick perut mommy. Heeee. *mommycries*

Mungkin juga kan beralih bulan. Hmmm. Get well soon baby :)

K la.nak gi tatap budak ensem yang dah setahun yang tengah tido ni lelama.
*cries.cries.cries. ♥♡♥♡♥♡

jemah sangat mimik muka tu nak oii :p

ALLAHUAKBAR

I'm a bit emo when I heard about the missing airplane MH370. Especially when they mentioned that there is 2 infant on board.  I look at my baby and my heart cry badly =`[

May Allah swt ease everything.  He knows best.  Believe in KUNFAYAKUN.

♥

Love u till Jannah. Fullstop.